Marriage is there to keep the sacred things sacred. in Gods eyes marriage is a holy thing.he is pleased with it.out of marriage the sacred things are defiled. I think of the temple and my body.my body is a sacred place,this world has turned what is sacred into something common.this world has changed out minds,our thinking.i think of back in the day when the printing press was just invented, imagine using news paper as loo role would be …madness!!its not such a good example…thinking of the name of God,back in the day people couldn’t even say His name they’d only say the consonance but know ,I remember someone say that the kids she taught in crèche thought that Jesus is a swear word.His name was holy but has been defiled and is know common. thinking about my body.it is sacred. especially woman. for example if your in a crowded place and some guy just touched your ass, depending on how you feel or what you think about yourself,you’re most likely to feel cheap, defiled, but a guy doesn’t feel quite the same if the same thing happened to him.just our nature as female needs to be treated as a sacred place.the woman, her body and her emotions are so closely related, you could almost say that if you insult one you insult the other.not the same but really closely related. "do you think IM beautiful" her nature, her cry,only God can answer.your body is so important,it has an effect on you.when I wear heals I walk different and feel different,when I wear baggy jeans and timms I feel different.i feel good in both but its different.a womans hair IS her glory.she can be wearing the same clothes for three weeks but if her hair looks nice,real nice…its her glory.i really believe this and have experienced it.that’s just bt-the-by. you could say I’m taking that statement …..blah :)
Anyway, a sacred place, my body.marriage keeps things sacred.only one priest that has been sanctified by married. the more you see your body as sacred the better you feel about life but everything blossoms from the knowledge and nature about human beings and our creator. its all in the mind

Genesis ..."In the beginning" when God created everything, He took a look at everything and concluded that "It is good".I believe He had His little 'quiet time' where He sat back,took a look at creation refected on all this and decided that 'it is good'.He didn't have a quiet time with just Himself but with the Son and the Spirit.i believe that that's how our relationships with eachother should be.With the Father and with eachother?There was a time when the Son was away from the Father or the Sprirt but that was after the fall.Or is this how our relationship will be like after death?I think of Adam and Eve and God,how was their relationship?Maybe not as close as i suggest.Anyway,i really d believe that that's how close The Body should be.Whats wrong in having your quiet time like you normally do but having someone else there.God sat back and thought,He was in deep thought or in awe -I think so anyway.I imagine myself when i'm in deep thought and just talking to God,im usually very honest and confused and feel close to God.i wish I had relationships like that where I can have like 'quiet times' with people ,maybe two and still feel honest and confused but still close to God.There is a certain way we talk to God that we would want to share with others probably because of the fear of man "what will they think" we dont often share or we restrict that part of ourselves.I think its our nature though to be honest like this but then came fear.I guess you could compare this place to the Holy of Holies or a sacred place

a fathers love

i dont know why but there where these two situations when Bob told me he appreciates me and its felt like rain.and i believed what he said.it made me cry,it made me weak and at that place where i felt weak,i also felt loved.a spiritual father of mine (we're not really close but..) he told me he really appreciates me and i believed him,i listened to him.normally its just like "hey no problem,im just being me" but this time and the time Bob told me i didnt brush those words away,i listen,believed and took them in.both theses mens words made me feel accepted,appreciated, loved and ok to be weak.i havent had many male figures in life who have showed me Gods love and it broke me,broke any defences i had.i was no longer trying to be strong.God loves me like this.i am grateful for these two men!!!

I want to live a legacy

Nicole Nordeman - Legacy.....

"i dont mind if you got something nice to say about me ....
and i enjoy an accolade like the rest
and you could take my picture and hang it in a gallery of all the Who's Who's and So's-and-So's that used to be the best at such and such, it wouldnt matter much
i wont lie,it feels alright to see your name in lights
we all need an "Atta boy" or "Atta girl"
but in the end I'd like to hang my hat on more besides temporary trappings of this world

i wasnt to live a legacy
how will they remember me?
did i choose to love?
Did i point at You enough?to make a mark on things
i want to leave an offerring
a child of mercy and grace, who blessed Your name unapologetically
and leave that kind of legacy

i dont have to look too far or to long awhile, to make a lengthy list of all that i enjoy
its an accumulating trinket and a treasure pile
where moth and rust,theives and such will soon enough destroy

not well-traveled,not well-read
not well-to-do or well-bred
just want to hear instead
"well done,good and faithful one"

i dont mind if you got something nice to say about me"

what is your greatest fear

what is your greatest fear?I've always believed that God would be with me but I know with out Him it would be hell.So, what is my greatest fear? Thought it was getting pregnant at a young age.I'm at a point in my life where I'm looking forward to my education,my caree,friendships etc.I would just feel like I would missing out on so much. The scary thing about being pregnant?To tell you the truth the scariest thing would the reactions of people around me.i imagine the situation and the first thing is...how do I tell my family?they would feel like I let them down maybe even ashamed of me for a while.i think about my church...-just to say,I'm one of those "innocent shy " people so peoples expectations... well they would be shocked!!!anyway back to what I was saying,imagine a pastors wife being pregnant but the child isnt the pastors child. the father of the child is some guy in the congregation and everybody knows who it is. imagine what would be going on in her mind."Oh God,help me"..."What will my husband say"..."I've really let him down"..."what will the church say"..."people wont look at me the same way...they wont hear what I say,it will just go over their heads because they'll just remember what I've done"...the list goes on.Really really if you look at this,is really the fear of man.i noticed the other day that the reason I'm, not living with my whole heart is because of the fear of man.the reason my greatest(its not the greatest fear but its pretty bad)...the reason my greatest fear is getting pregnant before being married is,yes I'd be disappointing myself but what makes it worse is because of the fear of man.and you know,that is your only reward ...their reaction.the fear of man!I think sometimes we see people, especially those in church,as God.especially when its something like getting pregnant or etc.we went to a party not so long ago and I didn't dance like I normally do.i was holding back.why,because of the fear of man -- people from my church.i wanted to dance like crazy but I couldnt because I felt they cant handle this,they wont hear a word I say or when they do they'll just remember me going crazy.just to say,me dancing was for fun,it wasnt really adding to God.its really sad.i couldn't go crazy because I thought they'd judge me.sad?lets imagine I'm the pastors wife.i'd feel a responsibility to live as an example and yet I'm holding back from dancing like crazy,holding back from living from my heart.the fear that they would judge me,that's putting them in the position of God.the fear of man is putting man as an idol.i love dancing!I feel free.the battlefield of the mind...

Beautiful is Your praise on my lips

Lisa Mclendon - beautiful is Your praise on my lips (plus my remix)
"beautiful is Your praise on my lips...hearts been broken,emotion reck,life's a mess...beautiful is Your praise on my lips...what makes a dark situation bright and a heavy situation light because,...beautiful is Your praise on my lips...how do i know?because my life tells me so because,...beautiful is Your praise on my lips...you see i've been betrayed by loved ones and back stabbed by friends but in my pain i find deliverance from beautiful praise from my lips...because beautiful is Your praise on my lips..."

this morning,i felt like a man...so small.i felt weak.i really needed God and He was there.i needed that!it was a moment when my heart and all of me needed to know that i am loved.
here i am Lord,a sinner.unworthy of You.just a man,really,i am nothing.i find myself in the same place i was not so long ago,needing Your forgiveness.help me to stand and not to be broken by the same thing over again.forgive me Lord.i feel weak,broken,alone.i feel like my world is caving in an i need to know Your love.hold me till i cry.hold me till i no more.hold me till i am confused no more?just hold me.
i felt broken and weak before God. undeserving of Him.then i just kept quiet and just listened
God was saying that i am His beloved,that i am worthy of His love,that He loves to love me.that He thinks i'm perferct.that He loves me so much,so much.why dont you want to accept my love?when i thought about that,i didnt really want to hear it.You think i'm beautiful but look at me know.the most beautiful part of you is the brokenness.look at a plain rock and look at the grand canyon that has been broken by winds and waters.look at a piece of glass and look at shattered piece of glass with all its patterns,doesn't it attract you compared to that plain piece of glass.the most beautiful part of you is the broken part of you.
i need to know that You are with me,right beside me.that You are in me,living.I need to know that You love me,i need to know.i need to know that You are holding my hand,that You number my steps,that You still smile at me even when.
come running to the mercy seat